When Did I Become A Grown Up?


Posted on: 09/09/2010

I’ve decided to shut down the blog. For a few reasons. First, I thought my blog was anonymous as far as my real life goes and it turns out it wasn’t. No, my ex never found it, but in some of my anger I hurt someone I care about very much.  I never wanted this to happen. I know that in the heat of the moment we say angry things we normally wouldn’t, and I often posted while I was upset as a way to work thru feelings. But now that I’ve hurt someone I feel just awful.  Second, like I just said, this blog has a lot of angry content. I started blogging long before I ever left my husband. So this blog has been with me through the past two tumultuous years. It has helped me get through the worst time of my life. It has served its purpose. The divorce is done (except for the fact that I am fighting to get my child support and the settlement paid to me).  So, its done and I’m ready to move on. I’ve been working hard at getting rid of anger and hatred so I can leave the past where it belongs.  In the past. I feel like I need to leave this blog with it.  One day maybe I will blog again, and if I do I will let my regular followers know where to find me, but until then I will still be visiting your blogs and commenting. So don’t worry, I’m not leaving entirely.

I’ve emailed with several of you and would love to keep talking. If anyone wants to stay in touch feel free to email me at iamagrownup@gmail.com  I’d love to hear from you. I swear. Don’t be shy.

So look for me in your comments, and since writing is such an important part of who I am now, I know I will be back. Just with happier stories to share, because right now its definitely time to let go of the painful past. Thanks for all your dedication and comfort the past two years. It meant a lot to me.


6 Responses to "TTFN"

So sorry to see you go. I was wondering if there was something going on that you weren’t around. That is one of my biggest fears, someone I know starting to read. They just don’t understand the privacy it entails. Best of luck to you and hope to see you around again!

I’m not leaving. I’m still visiting blogs. Yours too. I need to see what happens with you! I will blog again one day. I will start a blog that us more positive and about moving in, rather than dwelling on the past. And yes, I was upset to find out my blog wasn’t private. In part because I hurt at least one person who I love and I’m sick about it. And because I really need a forum to write to. Just keeping a diary doesn’t work for me. I need the feedback. Anyhow, this is not goodbye. I will be around your blog and back again one day.

Better days to you and your girls, KT. Please drop me a line from time to time to let me know how you’re doing. I’m glad to have met you along the way.

Sniff. I will miss you and your posts…please keep in touch and I look forward to your new blog in the (hoefully near) futurr!!

Brave, honest and clever decisions.
I look forward to your return, and to a new, positive start in your (blogging) life.


aw i just stumbled upon your blog… i hope you will find happiness and hope to see you back around.

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